I'm IN HAWAII

Finally a new place to start fresh and meet new people only problem is that just like my mother said "where ever you go there you are"is definitely the case here. So I already have a sort of crush on this guy in my class and just like always I play the friend card. Aggghhh I moved over 2600 miles away from home but my same bad habits of not putting myself out there and thinking of all the reasons why i shouldn't try are still with me. Well i cant lose hope yet cuz it is still only the first week of school, so I'll post another blog when and if something happens. Good or bad I will write about it. toodles ^o^

Would you want an EPIC LOVE?

So just got done watching this anime series in which these two star-crossed lovers can only be with each other every 12,000 years. I know people wish for that once in a life time kind of love like romeo and Juliet or Superman in Louise lane. But I'm starting to think that kind of love is just crazy impossible to handle. I mean maybe if I had experienced love that moved me to the core of me soul I would feel differently, but I still don't even know then.

sorry i just ended up blabbing. The whole 12,000 thing was just mind boggling to me.

Iz so good to be BACK!

It was amazing. Twilight is cute but Trueblood is just GOT-dang SEXxY!!!

Yattttttaaaa!!! ( I Did it! Japanese)

So I was just on yesterday wishing something would happen and now today I got great news............
I've been accepted at the University of Hawaii! I cant wait to go!

Will grow but never bloom again

So much has happened today. I mean ALOT. But it is so sad the things I call exciting makes my life sound really boring. I saw a deer, went for a walk with my friend, had my car egged, and saw a pretty huge fire down town where i work. Actually that last one was big, but besides that every thing is pretty mundane . Sometimes I wish my life could be more on track than it is right now. I've graduated from high school and community college, great accomplishments but now I'm just stuck waiting for something to happen. Well I think i might actually be waiting for some one to come more than anything. I just want to connect with someone. I mean I'm glad that I have the friends that I do but you know i cant be intimate with the way I could be with a guy. I'm the only one who has not had a real boyfriend. I just don't know how to connect with them and the last couple of times I have they either a) still love someone else b) like someone else or c) are dating someone else. I just wanna meet a guy who could be my friend and then possibly my boyfriend. I just feel I deserve it. I've done whats right my whole life, been the GOOD GIRL. Never caused problems for my parents, got a job, help pay for things, graduated. UGGHHHHhhhhh!!! Maybe I just need a hug.

The Dream Has been realized

Happy Happy NEw YeAR Folks

So I hope that the lord blesses me with a great year ahead. Maybe I'll meet new people and learn so much needed life lessons when I move to Hawaii and let everything go good for my friend and her baby. May things work out and she finally finds that family she's been looking for. God Bless all the people in my life and all his beautiful creatures on earth. Have a great year 2009.....HERE WE COME!!!@^%$#^#@%#^