The Dream Has been realized

Happy Happy NEw YeAR Folks

So I hope that the lord blesses me with a great year ahead. Maybe I'll meet new people and learn so much needed life lessons when I move to Hawaii and let everything go good for my friend and her baby. May things work out and she finally finds that family she's been looking for. God Bless all the people in my life and all his beautiful creatures on earth. Have a great year 2009.....HERE WE COME!!!@^%$#^#@%#^

"The Holiday" Insepration

As I lay upon my couch
Looking at the black screen
As the credits role by
And the symphony plays loud
My heart lets out a great sigh
Why cant I be the leading lady
Of my own life
Instead of watching it all fly by
Why cant I raise my voice
And speak the perfect lines
To make the world understand
Why I am the way I am
I hope and I pray everyday
That someone will play the part
No longer will I stand alone
For someone could be them
Admirer, lover, friend
All in one package
The leading man

Birthday November 23, 1989

So if you remember how I said before I always meet these guys that are hella into me and I'm only sorta into them, well I meet one on Halloween and I've been seeing him the past couple of weeks. Itz been......interesting. He likes me for me and all I want to do is change him into what I want. I love Hugh Jackman and he totally has that kind,sweet, and accepting soul just like Hugh, but I never get really excited when I see him. I never act like myself because the one time I did he said everything is cool but it wasn't. You know you can just tell in someone's voice when they're telling little white lies. It was totally obvious.

Through out this whole thing I've realized that I'm just like this song when it comes to guys. Of all the guys I've been on dates on I could never see myself being truly happy and free. But hey I'm only nineteen (TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!^___^). Maybe I should just date and maybe when itz really time things will just fall into place.

Oh! P.S. here's that song I was talking about.

Amiel: I dont want to be your girl


I'd like to hang around and have a good time
But I don't want to be your girl
I'd like to sit around, talk of the times
But I don't want to be your girl
I'd like to hold on to you, whisper those lines
But I don't want to be your girl
I'd like to melt into you, share of my mind
But I don't want to be your girl

No, I don't want to be your girl
No, I don't want to be your girl

I'd like to hang around and have a good time
But I don't want to be the one
I'd like to sit around, talk of the times
But I don't want to be the one
I'd like to melt into you, worship the stars
But I don't want to be the one
I'd like to sing to you, sing you to sleep
But I don't want to be the one

No, I don't want to be the one
I'm on my way
I'm not gonna fall like a fool today
Now, I'm on my way
No, I'm not gonna fall like a fool today
Like a fool today

What would you say if I said I was trouble
What would you say if I said I'm only gonna walk away
Now I don't want to cause you hurt and trouble
But I'm flying free so I'll be on my way

Cause I'm on my way
I'm not gonna fall like a fool today
Ohh, I'm on my way
No, I'm not gonna fall like a fool today
Like a fool today
I'll be on my way
Like a fool today
I'm on my way, on my way, on my way

!God Giggidy AMERICA!

That's all I can say is GIgggidy!!

Dang it I did it again

I always meet these guys that are totally into me but I always end up blowin them off the first time I get with them and then I go back and try to make it work. And this dude at the club last night....he was...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh OMG! Super Cutie, but I didnt get his number so I gotta go back again and get on it. The time before I saw him and he was lookin but he didnt do anything... so next time instead of just dancin I'm gonna tell him I'm feelin him and I wanna get to know him. He's not a jerk like the other dudes who want to ram me a against the wall. Wish me luck!

Dreamin ON

Time to do a blog blast. So today I went for a walk in the park with my best friend and we started talkin about relationships. Itz like everything in our lives besides love always goes right. We've got okay jobs, we made it through school, and family life is fairly good. But anything involving the opposite sex always, always, ALWAYS leads to nowhere. Next year I'm gonna be 20 and I've never been in a relationship. Most people tell me that itz all good cuz I'm still young, but when almost all the other people you meet your age have had a boyfriend or girlfriend, you end up feeling bad about yourself. Like you couldn't make it work or all the guys you end up liking always like someone else. We always get dragged around by these guys that say they like us, but then next thing we know they've got a girlfriend. Then we get hit on by totally unattractive scum- ball type guys who wanna just have a good time with us. All I'm sayin is when is that sweet but sometimes jerky boyfriend gonna show up!