"The Holiday" Insepration

As I lay upon my couch
Looking at the black screen
As the credits role by
And the symphony plays loud
My heart lets out a great sigh
Why cant I be the leading lady
Of my own life
Instead of watching it all fly by
Why cant I raise my voice
And speak the perfect lines
To make the world understand
Why I am the way I am
I hope and I pray everyday
That someone will play the part
No longer will I stand alone
For someone could be them
Admirer, lover, friend
All in one package
The leading man

Birthday November 23, 1989

So if you remember how I said before I always meet these guys that are hella into me and I'm only sorta into them, well I meet one on Halloween and I've been seeing him the past couple of weeks. Itz been......interesting. He likes me for me and all I want to do is change him into what I want. I love Hugh Jackman and he totally has that kind,sweet, and accepting soul just like Hugh, but I never get really excited when I see him. I never act like myself because the one time I did he said everything is cool but it wasn't. You know you can just tell in someone's voice when they're telling little white lies. It was totally obvious.

Through out this whole thing I've realized that I'm just like this song when it comes to guys. Of all the guys I've been on dates on I could never see myself being truly happy and free. But hey I'm only nineteen (TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!^___^). Maybe I should just date and maybe when itz really time things will just fall into place.

Oh! P.S. here's that song I was talking about.

Amiel: I dont want to be your girl


I'd like to hang around and have a good time
But I don't want to be your girl
I'd like to sit around, talk of the times
But I don't want to be your girl
I'd like to hold on to you, whisper those lines
But I don't want to be your girl
I'd like to melt into you, share of my mind
But I don't want to be your girl

No, I don't want to be your girl
No, I don't want to be your girl

I'd like to hang around and have a good time
But I don't want to be the one
I'd like to sit around, talk of the times
But I don't want to be the one
I'd like to melt into you, worship the stars
But I don't want to be the one
I'd like to sing to you, sing you to sleep
But I don't want to be the one

No, I don't want to be the one
I'm on my way
I'm not gonna fall like a fool today
Now, I'm on my way
No, I'm not gonna fall like a fool today
Like a fool today

What would you say if I said I was trouble
What would you say if I said I'm only gonna walk away
Now I don't want to cause you hurt and trouble
But I'm flying free so I'll be on my way

Cause I'm on my way
I'm not gonna fall like a fool today
Ohh, I'm on my way
No, I'm not gonna fall like a fool today
Like a fool today
I'll be on my way
Like a fool today
I'm on my way, on my way, on my way